I have come to the conclusion that I need to get myself more energy, especially if I am going to lose weight. This being 211 pounds is not acceptable, especially when I was 145 pounds at my heaviest weight when I gave birth in 2009. Now, I have let myself go and I allow myself to just settle with this. Even though my depression sets in and I know this behavior is not acceptable, I continue to allow myself to act this way.

To me, at this point, my behavior is allowing my youngest son to act in anyway he chooses. This once again is not acceptable behavior. I can only correct the behavior if I correct my own behavior and have a routine that is followed.

We need to have house rules, a routine, consequences and keep them in tack and following them. I have started a routine chart and a rules and consequences chart for Jeffery to be able to look at, but I need to make my own and have it posted as well, even if it is just for me.

I have managed to get many things done around the house that I wanted to but there are still several more things that are needing to be done. We lost the air conditioning unit about three weeks ago and I still have five more days to make it through before a new one is going to be installed.

I keep adding to my to-do list but I am trying to keep myself on track. I am not adding things that are not important and that need to be done within a designed time frame, which is making my anxiety and stress levels stay at a decent level.

Dealing with a toddler that does not want to listen or anything, is making things difficult and I am trying to manage. Relationships- well those are not in a good standing because I just can’t. I can’t deal with the situations that are in.