Date 3/19/2023

Everyday I sit and think, everyday. Day by day I process what might have been, what has been, what could have been, what is! There is not enough time in the day, there is not enough time in my brain to function. I look around and know I need help, even with the simple things, and then I add more to my to-do list like I will find and end to it eventually. Yet, I know deep down it will just keep growing and growing because I am never going to have the time, the energy or not be depressed enough to function. I keep trying to find a therapist to go to but in the end, I never call, never make an appointment.

The therapist I had virtually years ago, was not helpful at all in the situation that was happening. I am just at a blank because I need a “fixer” not a “how does that make you feel” person. I need to get my mental health together and get things figured out so I can focus more. I personally think I need to have some more testing done because there is issues medically that are going on and no one can find me some answers.

Financially, I am 3 quarters away from being buried in a grave which is never a good thing when your a single parent. Mentally, I am exhausted and so unorganized my head is going to explode.